Rolling Rolling Rolling...SMACK!

I have spent the past few months reflecting on my life. Taking stock of what the past 42 years have been about, revelling in the memories.. Isn't that what happens this time of the year? Memories flood your mind.......

Ok ok, I have been forced to sit here and think about my life and lifestyle. You see right now I don't have much else to do, but think. think think think...That brings a smile to my face. I picture Winnie-the-Pooh finger to head going think think think as he tries to recall where he has stashed the last pot of honey.

For me thinking is dangerous. I tend to over think things. The more time I think about things, the better the chances are that I will either mess up a good thing, drive myself crazy with "what ifs", hide under the covers and never come out, or eat an entire pint of ice cream as an aid to figure things out. Makes perfect sense right?

I have to make changes to my life, whether I like it or not. It is for my health for the immediate, and the long term. Of course my over thinking has kicked in. How do those changes impact me? Won't they change me, the me I have been for 42 years?

The human energizer bunny-that's me. Blessed or cursed with an incredible energy, that has amazed my co-workers, friends and dismayed my family is at the crux of this change.

I am the hamster running around in the ball. The energizer bunny that keeps going and going. For example, I was an athlete growing up, a swimmer to be exact. I swam twice a day, worked out, was training to go to the Olympics, went to school, and sleep was minimal. In my adult life, that followed me. It was not unusual for me to be able to work 15 plus hours, sleep 2 hrs and work a full shift again, or to work a couple days with no sleep.
And I gave my full self to it all.

Once people realized my stamina, naturally it was exploited. I allowed it. So I set myself up for this outcome.

I have to place the hamster ball on a shelf for now. For how long I am not sure. I need to learn to take it slow, and easy. Get more sleep, and listen to what my body is saying now. Did I mention I am pig-headed?

Yep, pig-headed. So because of that, my body took control. I mean I was not paying attention to what it was trying to warn me about.

So my body began the game of clue................................................

Tune in next time for the adventures of Body Clue....